Control

​Control. I think that pretty much summed up my childhood. I learned at an early age that raw emotions weren’t welcoming so I turned inward. Perfection was an unrealistic goal and I pushed to achieve it. I was very emotional and crying was thought of as a weakness.

There aren’t any “bad” emotions, just negative ways to express them. I go through daily rollercoasters, but I’ve learned how to reflect and express them appropriately. I still struggle at times, but that just reminds me once again that I’m human and perfection is unattainable. 

4 thoughts on “Control

  1. Sorry to hear everything you are going through. Im currently going through recovery and its one of the toughest things I’ve done but its made me realise that I’m not alone and there are so many other people out there who are the same as me. If you want to have a look at my blog its timetosmile.wordpress.com and let me know what you think! keep on doing what you’re doing xxx

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  2. I was raised with the same outlook. It’s difficult to struggle to express emotions as an adult when they weren’t modeled properly for you as a child. Good luck !

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