I find it ironic that my inability to handle change also comes into play with my treatment plan. I’ve been on several medications, stopped them, restarted, multiple therapy modalities, alternative medicine, etc over the years. Medication was crucial in high school and college, but the side effects were unbearable. I went years without meds and was fine, until my father died. Life stressors alter my treatment and recovery. What worked in the past didn’t work then. I had to fine something new and I’m grateful for professionals that are open to explore what works for me. As a minor, I didn’t have that authority but I do now. At times it was frustrating, but that is because I was looking for a cure instead of maintenence. Accepting that this is a chronic illness helped me understand that what works now, might not work forever.