I’ve talked about this before but it is something I think isn’t talked about enough especially in recovery.
For a while, I lived in this state where I was so worried about triggering an episode that I was just fueling other maladaptive behaviors. I was so concerned about trying to avoid depression or hypomania that I created this rigid bubble that I couldn’t live up to which made me more susceptible to having an episode. So the cycle begins.
While we must remain aware, we can’t set up a life that is unrealistic to maintain in the long term.