One of the most frustrating things, when I started therapy, was trying to find a cause/trigger/etc. I was in my early teens, so I can understand the reason for this. This continued to frustrate me over the years especially trying to explain to people my mental illnesses or how certain episodes can just happen…no rhyme or reason. This is very real for me with a depressive episode. My most recent one was subtle. There was no sadness, crying, or hopelessness. I was trying to rationalize the exhaustion, lack of interest… Read more Without a cause →
The trivialization of a chronic disorder just fuels the stigma. Today is World Bipolar Day. Awareness matters. I’m proud of those that fight daily to maintain their mental health.
It’s interesting the ways we can choose to protect ourselves. For me it was either compulsive behaviors to manage it or dissociative episode to escape it. Both are distractions to handle the intrusive thoughts, but aren’t helpful for the long term. I used to binge to deal with stress, purge to release the guilt, and then compulsively exercise or restrict to avoid binge eating again. I used to get depressed, start to sleep more, have feelings of disconnection, and memory lapses to subconsciously not deal with reality. They were all… Read more Coping with reality →
“I’ve lost many friends and family due to bipolar II disorder and in the process I learned that you can love someone and they can love you back, but they can also be toxic so you have to let them go. I stopped allowing others’ lack of understanding of mental illness or unrealistic expectations dictate my progress. Because my journey cannot be led nor experienced by anyone other than myself. Once I burned those toxic bridges and learned to accept myself, I found a whole new level of inner peace.”… Read more Letting go →
“I have bipolar 2, PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, and severe anxiety. I run a blog on my journey through mental illnesses and within my journey I have made the mistake… Read more Believe →