You can’t miss something you never had right? You can’t experience loss if you never started right? Those were the justifications I would tell myself to not get attached. This could mean something as tangible as a person or abstract as an idea. Detachment probably saved me from a lot of heartache but probably also halted me achieving so much more. I’m allowing myself to feel all emotions and accept most things because I understand now how my temporary emotions are.
With the recent suicides, we are made aware of the importance of reaching out if we are struggling. Yes, that makes sense but that is one of the key struggles most have when they are dealing with a mental illness. The isolation, guilt, and just pure exhaustion from everything makes that very task seem implausible. This is why it is so important to make others aware of your symptoms and what can trigger them. Everyone doesn’t have a strong support system so if you see someone struggling (and you are… Read more Asking for help →
“This was a struggle for me but I had to be ready to ask and accept help.” Anonymous post. Thanks for sharing!
It’s interesting the ways we can choose to protect ourselves. For me it was either compulsive behaviors to manage it or dissociative episode to escape it. Both are distractions to handle the intrusive thoughts, but aren’t helpful for the long term. I used to binge to deal with stress, purge to release the guilt, and then compulsively exercise or restrict to avoid binge eating again. I used to get depressed, start to sleep more, have feelings of disconnection, and memory lapses to subconsciously not deal with reality. They were all… Read more Coping with reality →
And that is okay. Maybe you were depressed and finally took the time to clean. Maybe you tried the fear food you always avoided. Maybe you fill turned in that job application. Your definition of success can always change. Little achievements matter.
I was diagnosed at a young age with Clinical Depression, Generalized Anxiety with OCD tendencies, and Bulimia. I followed the treatment plans, found others with similar diagnoses, but something wasn’t working. I was getting worse. I was misdiagnosed. After my freshman year in college and psychotic breakdown, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder II. All my previous diagnoses were symptoms of Bipolar II Disorder. The anxiety, depression, purging were symptoms/behaviors of my untreated mental illness. With having an misdiagnosis, I understand the importance of treating the symptoms and not put… Read more Symptoms vs Diagnosis →
Being open and sharing is great for spreading awareness, but it isn’t necessary if it creates further issues. Never feel required to share your story. It’s yours and you have the right to share when you feel comfortable. I get some people intentions, and they mean well, but everyone isn’t ready. And that’s ok. Your past. Your journey. Your time.