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Fear of relapse

I’ve talked about this before, but I can’t reintoriate how important this is for me. Especially since worrying about my anxiety causes more anxiety! I know my triggers and I understand my symptoms, but I have to find the balance to not allow it to consume me. I used to be so focused on recovery that I barely enjoyed life trying to secure the bubble I established. The point of my coping mechanisms was to allow me to still enjoy life but to still have an action plan for when… Read more Fear of relapse

Detachment

You can’t miss something you never had right? You can’t experience loss if you never started right? Those were the justifications I would tell myself to not get attached. This could mean something as tangible as a person or abstract as an idea. Detachment probably saved me from a lot of heartache but probably also halted me achieving so much more. I’m allowing myself to feel all emotions and accept most things because I understand now how my temporary emotions are.

Asking for help

With the recent suicides, we are made aware of the importance of reaching out if we are struggling. Yes, that makes sense but that is one of the key struggles most have when they are dealing with a mental illness. The isolation, guilt, and just pure exhaustion from everything makes that very task seem implausible. This is why it is so important to make others aware of your symptoms and what can trigger them. Everyone doesn’t have a strong support system so if you see someone struggling (and you are… Read more Asking for help

Coping with reality

It’s interesting the ways we can choose to protect ourselves. For me it was either compulsive behaviors to manage it or dissociative episode to escape it. Both are distractions to handle the intrusive thoughts, but aren’t helpful for the long term. I used to binge to deal with stress, purge to release the guilt, and then compulsively exercise or restrict to avoid binge eating again. I used to get depressed, start to sleep more, have feelings of disconnection, and memory lapses to subconsciously not deal with reality. They were all… Read more Coping with reality

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