Bulimia ruled my life for many years. I was ashamed of it, but it was mine and I didn’t want to let go of it. I was open about my issues with depression and anxiety as a teenager, but guarded with discussing bulimia because it was the one thing providing an temporary fix. I didn’t care about the sore throats, stomach ulcers, arrhythmia, dizziness, etc. None of that matter. So after an inpatient stay, I finally became open about it (mostly because I couldn’t purge like I wanted to) and… Read more NEDA Awareness Week →
It’s interesting the ways we can choose to protect ourselves. For me it was either compulsive behaviors to manage it or dissociative episode to escape it. Both are distractions to handle the intrusive thoughts, but aren’t helpful for the long term. I used to binge to deal with stress, purge to release the guilt, and then compulsively exercise or restrict to avoid binge eating again. I used to get depressed, start to sleep more, have feelings of disconnection, and memory lapses to subconsciously not deal with reality. They were all… Read more Coping with reality →
”An eating disorder/self harm ruled my life for far too long and I’m finally beginning to realise that my body is not a battleground; it is the most fantastic, wonderful… Read more Validation →
”I’ve been suffering from an eating disorder for over 2 years, and it has completely stolen from me my sense of satiety, body positivity, ability to be happy when I’m… Read more Expressing gratitude →
Sometimes if you can lay your head down at night and survived the day, then that is enough. We all have those days and it is an accomplishment.
It’s so hard to keep this one in check. I find something that fascinates me and I try to learn everything I can about it. Sometimes to the point where… Read more Addictive behaviors →
I don’t even know if I want to add to this because it speaks for itself. It’s a realistic view when you deal with a chronic illness. If I can… Read more Recovery →
At an early age, I noticed the intrusive thoughts. They came out of nowhere and given the spontaneity, my focus were on them. They were always negative and dark which… Read more Intrusive thoughts →