May is an interesting month for me. May consist of Mother's Day, my mother's birthday, and around the time she got sick that led to her death. Over the years since her death, I've gone through multiple emotions with this month. Sadness because I missed her. Anger because she left me. Envy for those that … Continue reading Celebrating her
Tag: Mental illness
Emotional Intelligence
I know anyone that struggles with mental illness understands the battle between the rational and emotional mind. I'm reading "Emotional Intelligence" by Daniel Coleman again. I remember one of my psychology professors recommended it to me in college while working with him during an independent study. If you are a psych nerd like myself or … Continue reading Emotional Intelligence
Reaction
It taught me to ask myself, "Is this a distress to be tolerated or a problem to be solved?" Anonymous post. Thank you for sharing!
The inevitable
TW: death; suicide Death can be a taboo topic, but it is an inevitable one. Within the past 2 weeks, I've had 5 deaths impact my life. The one I really want to focus on is the first one which was a suicide. We worked together and I had only had a couple interactions with … Continue reading The inevitable
Being uncomfortable
This is especially for the people that feel stuck in their recovery and struggling with making that "first step" towards treatment. It is ok to be uncomfortable. Treatment is going to constantly test you. You will be pushed to places that you may have buried for years. I've spoken before about vulnerability and I feel … Continue reading Being uncomfortable
NEDA Awareness Week
Bulimia ruled my life for many years. I was ashamed of it, but it was mine and I didn't want to let go of it. I was open about my issues with depression and anxiety as a teenager, but guarded with discussing bulimia because it was the one thing providing an temporary fix. I didn't … Continue reading NEDA Awareness Week
The aftermath
I have a friend that has schizoaffective disorder and we talked about the aftermath of an episode. Episodes include depressive, manic, mixed, psychotic, etc. You go through them at weeks (or months) and at times all you were trying to do is stabilize enough to make it through them. You survive it but now you … Continue reading The aftermath
My own journey
"I'm a recovering drug addict and have learned to accept my own journey. I looked at someone else's successes and would get disappointed when I didn't live up to them. Once I realized I was still using addictive behaviors, just not with drugs, I was able to be real with myself. I'm now 2 years … Continue reading My own journey
Without explanation
This mostly goes for myself, especially with self-talk and rumination associated with anxiety. When I learned how to set boundaries for myself and not overthink, I'm more productive with myself and also being there for others. For me to constantly go over this in my head, at times, leaves me "stuck" causing more issues. I've … Continue reading Without explanation
Without a cause
One of the most frustrating things, when I started therapy, was trying to find a cause/trigger/etc. I was in my early teens, so I can understand the reason for this. This continued to frustrate me over the years especially trying to explain to people my mental illnesses or how certain episodes can just happen...no rhyme … Continue reading Without a cause
